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- Name: the tormented pleaser
- Location: metro manila, Philippines
im the tormented pleaser, born under the star of Taurus, year of the dog, eldest in the family, currently working my ass off for no reason, i am my own comforter, afraid of confrontations and leeches, loves to eat donuts(classic), and loves to drink flavored water. I am an optimistic person. i love my friends, i am thoughtful, i strongly believe, i dont fall in love easily...for now.
likes: doughnuts and coffee | guy and gay friends | optimism |sensible talkers|music|
hates: prententions | assholes | lame-stupid people|rejections| rants|leeches|
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- October 09, 2008
- what do i want?
- a suitor that brings you to a CHURCH MASS?
- the art of choosing, ndi naman!
- PRobable karir or what???
- when you are torn between two lovers
- birthday niya!
- my own views about casual sex
- cynic on love
- recuperating
- January 2005
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>>>ME LLUUUVV AVENUE<<<
i am not in touch with my sexual side these days that's why i am not posting anything. I dont know. Wala naman akong boylet ngayon, i am so single and available..hehe...why not??!!! the tormented pleaser at Sunday, January 30, 2005
As usual, what else is new? The Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines still disapprove condom as a means of family planning. I know i dont have the experience with regards the subject, but it doesnt make me unaware of the benefits of such thing (condom). What could the Filipinos do to prevent the increasing number of population (which is not a joke)? Abstinence? yeah right... as if Filipino men could stop it. And most Filipino men says they'd rather want the withdrawal method which for a very obvious fact/statistic showed that it hasnt proved itself to be effective!!! Please naman... lets use the condom not for population increase cases only but for the prevention of STD as well. the tormented pleaser at Thursday, January 27, 2005
hehe... yesterday, i had a class on WC4, Family planning yun... then the things discussed by our teacher (hindi naman sa pagmamayabang) were the same stuff that i knew. Parang nasabi ko sa sarili ko, Miss kailangan ko pa bang isulat yan eh parang master ko na yata yang mga terms na yan (example... fellatio... cunnilingus...G-spot...Clitoris But on the contrary, those were only book knowledge.. things i've learned from reading sex education selections (whee...porno kamo!), thhe movies that teaches those things, making me aware that i am a sexual person, i havent really applied those. hehe...so sad but it is fact. Im still a virgin (ito na naman ako...). One thing's for sure, i should practice (when the time comes lang naman) monogamous relationship, and safe sex of course and sabi pa ni Miss, pag may husband na daw ako, kasi we discussed about STDs yesterday and it was so icky... yuck talaga... as in kadiri those things!!! Miss Lim showed us the pictures of a sick person (STDs) especially their organs and yuck talaga... gross!!!!!!! the tormented pleaser at Wednesday, January 26, 2005
"Being Twenty-Something" Contributed by: chems de vera <chaminelly@gmail.com> They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. the tormented pleaser at Friday, January 21, 2005
vivian and martin rocks!!!
the tormented pleaser at Thursday, January 20, 2005
- exquisitee phenomenon- <3 me for me v.1 the tormented pleaser at Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Putang ina talaga!!! Tumawag na naman siya kanina. I dunno for what reasons (yeekk...lam mo kung bakit...sop na naman) but thank God i'm in my decentmind kanina, i just stared at my phone, and talagang titig ako ha!!! Imagine, i only stopped staring after my phone stopped ringing (oh my gulay...)...ulol talaga!!! Makapal ang muks...di ko alam...talagang maniac!!! haayy naku...basta ako, ok na!!! the tormented pleaser at Wednesday, January 19, 2005
yeekkk...true it is! no false statements i have my exams tomorrow so i have to temporarily take you boys out of my mind err... brains... it would be long before i can go back here and update y'all boys will be out of my head for atleaST a week or less (hehehe) bye guys...tag me..on my tagboard (deerrr..) the tormented pleaser at Tuesday, January 18, 2005
the tormented pleaser at Monday, January 17, 2005
the tormented pleaser at Monday, January 17, 2005
not exactly... but almost. What??? gulo kausap!!! Hindi...ganito yun...last night, i was busy scrooling thru pictures, when i saw this picture of me and my ex-boyfriend. It was a candid shot... nakahiga ako sa lap niya. I miss those times. It's been a long time since i had a relationship with the opposite sex. A year or more yata. But then, i am busy that's why i cant really focus on that. Having a boyfriend is fun, really. And also i dont wanna rush things out. I wanna take slow and maybe i will have one sa tamang panahon (yeah right!!) the tormented pleaser at Monday, January 17, 2005
Ano to.... laglagan??!! hahaha... dont worry boys. What i'm about to say are all factual at hindi ko kayo ibebenta!!!! Kayo pa, eh kayo nagturo sa akin ng mga nalalaman ko ngayon about the sex topic. Hahahahaha.... My first boyfriend is a guy (wow,lalaki!hahaha...) who lived in my mom's province. I knew him because i would often see him everytime na magbabakasyon ako dun. i remember one time, he used to make porma sa cousin ko. By the way, yung cousin ko na yun has already passed away. Sobrang pa-cute siya dun, grabe!!!! Palagi nga namin siyang tinutukso ng tita ko na if he really wants my cousin he should go and climb the langka tree we have in our yard. Silly guy, ayaw umakyat, duwag yata. But that tuksuhan never last, kasi umuwi na kami ng cousin ko sa Bacolod. When i was 17, i went back in my mom's province and it so happened na pa-siyam ng tatay nya na namatay. My other cousin (bernalyn) asked us (me and my sister and cousin) to go there and check the place(ganun??!!). So we did, and nandun siya, of course deadma ang lola mo. Care ko sa kanya! Then i stayed outside their house, with my tita and some people. He went up to me and started making kwento na. Kararating nya lang kasi galing Manila. i find him so maangas and maarte during that time. Shit sabi ko sa sarili ko, kelan pa ba matatapos tong kwentuhang to. i already showed obvious signs na ayoko nang makipagkwentuhan, but he kept on talking and ignored those signs. Stupid ka!!!! Later on i found out na first base na nya pala yun. Hahaha... malay ko ba!!! Naive pa ako nun anoh!!!! then i went back home and balik uli dun para magbakasyon, ayun nan ligaw na ang loko!!! My gooal at first was to make him "dusa"... parang "dahil maaangas ka tuturuan kita ng leksiyon" parang ganun. Turned out after i answered him, sineseryoso pala ng mga tita ko ang ginawa ko. They thought i was erious about the relationship. Ngeekkk.. grabe naman... wala man lang tiwala sa akiin!!! then the yucky thing happened. parang against all odds ang relasyon namin na hindi naman talaga!!! My family were furious about it, my friends, kahit yung sobrang layo ko ng relatives, pumapapel!!!! I ended up the relationship and told him i dont want this anymore. Yeekk.. yabang ng lola mo ah!!!! the tormented pleaser at Saturday, January 15, 2005
tungakkss..talaga...hindi ako pumasok ngayong 1pm, kasi tanghali na ako. grabe talaga... Ai, you know what... i made changes on my blog successfully...ulol!!! hahaha... this is me!!! and i love no doubt... no doubt about it!!! yeekkk... weehooo.... the tormented pleaser at Friday, January 14, 2005
i so hate what happened last night (?), actually midnight!! Around 12:03, he called me... but dont think of something nice, kasi it's still the same, balak niyang makipag sop, i immediately implied that i am not good about it, that i am upset about it. Nakakainis naman kasi ako eh, i just don't have the guts to tell him that i don't like what he's doing. I hate him so much, i might explode. I really am feeling bad about how he would treat me. Asshole. Asshole. Asshole. Hoi mister, i wanna tell you this, what you're doing isn't good. If you wanted to do that, not to me okey!!! Go find somebody else!!!! i hope you'll be able to read this!!! the tormented pleaser at Monday, January 10, 2005
if my memory serves me right (nakkss)... it happened when i was 17 0r 18 (i have to check my diary), my first boyfriend did it to me, an di remembered my feelings toward the incident. I felt shocked, and i even didnt respond during my first kiss... hahahah.... lame but yes... i just stood there, trying to process into my brains what's happening and what should i do. Well, at least my boyfriend was really nice to me, he is patient actually. I have this attitude of being maarte and stubborn. He always do what i say. Back to my first kiss, i remember his tounge inside my mouth and he obviously is trying to make me respond but sad to say, i didnt. My brain was working too much that i was preoccupied with the thinking and not with the feeling. The first kiss, i felt icky about it. Ewww... why does the kiss always have to be that way... so gross.. oh well.. that was when i had my first kiss.. now i'm totally different with regards to kissing, i can respond well! the tormented pleaser at Friday, January 07, 2005
grrr....cant wait to start this blog and personalise it... more intimate (?) me... more daring (?)... more sexuality (?)... yeah... i will try.... i will try my very best to reveal this sexual side of me.... the tormented pleaser at Wednesday, January 05, 2005 |